okay.. updated yest one long post n blogger decided to give up on uploading it. crap yest was so just not my day... s once again here to reupdate=.=

trail camp 10th-11th
well to get my dad's signature on the indemity form was tough already. had to listen to both parents' talk n in the end came to an agreement of going to camp but not stay the night. therefore i had to miss nightwalk.. ah nvm.. but the reason behind it was stupid seriously. anw just glad it was only a section of camp that i missed n not entirely! phew..

the 3d2n compressed into 2d1n was fun and learnt quite a lot of stuff n also team spirit tho we still needa improve on our initiative n keeping up to the pace.. urgency!! yeah.. the games planned was fun first time playing it dirty but fun hahas.. other then the abrasions n bruises as momento.. LOL muffins oi~!

second day of camp went back just in time for the games and cheers~ then at the end of it, we had reflection n debrief session.. we were seperated to 3 diff rms respectively and the starting felt as if we were in for a gd scolding cuz sgls looked so so stern!>< haha.. end up tat was the different comm that we were placed into.. i got into games!! n dear dear got into welfare=) both which was our first choice.. yay!~ the debrief session dragged on till quite late n by the time i got home, it was almost 10 lucky not to get any naggings

nerwin!~ heh.. tat's my grp name for FOC!! it's a submarine.. hahas~ cute name! dear dear got into bonnet n he was in the 'omg' state when he knew what was the it.. but glad he finds it cool n cute now!~ ^^

wednesday, 14th
the day i dread real much for it was D-day.. death n decision day as i told many.. well apparently it was really death for me n decision tat now it's 89.9% i would have to go over. any miracle tat's gonna save me? i don't think so..

early in the morning had to start the day so badly.. i was utterly disappointed with my results. neva felt so so ashamed of my result y? how now? this 2 questions just revolved arnd my mind.. at tat pt i wished so much i was at the extreme poles of earth isolated n free frm all others. not possible tho. tat was already the end of the rope n i can escape no further frm tis fate of mine.

i can't blame anyone but myself for it cuz i brought it upon myself right frm the start. a mess created by me that i will have to pick up the pieces n move on with it. went late for training and i wasn't in the mood at all for anything.. continued the day seemed fine to me.. glad i passed thru it without getting others worried abt me.. but i now know what's the meaning a phrase tat i once found strange abt..

now i'll just stop procrastinating, get myself together n walk the path i should with a smile on me cuz it'll be tough n make the best out of it. i swear to myself i won't wanna see similar results ever ever again.

right~ enough of that n there's commitments i have to take up and b responsible abt it. personal or sch related.. FOC arnd the corner i just wanna make it a gd one!! denyse!~ denyse!~ where's ur email!?>< without it neither me nor yanlin can get anything done/ planned out!!!~

ok enough for the time being.. rawr~
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