lala.. YEPers are finally back!! woohoo~ n FOC is super close now.. last day of march n i kinda dread it heh.. latest news i'll be going brisbane on 7th may~ anyone wanna send me off?? hahas~

past few days have been going back to sch for meetings and also dance practices.. n instead of dancesport tat has been cancelled off the performing item~ i joined hiphop! so tat makes it hiphop and sexylove^^ once again a back to back dance thingy.. lol such coincidence lo.. haha~ as for group stuff nerwin identity n flag is gonna done soon! n i do hope after tat can help out with other groups' stuff speeds things up faster=)

all this sch stuff and all seems to make time so limited i must say.. no time for personal stuff n such~ make me feel so bad about not accompanying dear dear more.. n his bday will be during camp even worst. cannot even celebrate it with him properly. wha~ making it even sadder, i won't be in s'pore for my bday=( cuz i'll be gone frm may n my bday's in june.. oh boos.. gah! i better make it up for something else n at least i have my parents over i HOPE.. if not it shall be the loneliest day of my live seriously><

today went out to the doc's again cuz my cough doesn't seem to b recovering anymore.. then went arnd looking for things to bring over n my parents bought me a jacket! heh.. v nice one but i really doubt i can wear it here in s'pore.. cuz it's way to warm lol

i miss dear dear! n he's still working spring cleaning the work area.. when he is not feeling well!! hmph.. how can the manager do tat lo.=( argh~~ okays.. i hope he goes home soon!
next wk will b a bz wk once again~ and take care of urselves everyone! can't afford to fall sick during camp><
drink lotsa water!~ tatas~~
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okays back to update!

hm.. yesterday also a day at home.. LOL wasn't too bad could rest at home since i wasn't all tat well.. haha

today~ went back to sch after 3 days of stay home was glad to be out haha.. met dear dear for short breakfast at then headed to sch.. went over to lsct there he led me thru the way for nightwalk during trial camp^^ after tat headed down to cc basement for dance prac for sexylove~ haha till abt 11.40+ officially started games comm meeting and shaun finally came!! haha~ cuz he's been "MIA" for 3 wks or so.. then we went to search the place for water source n also the route again for nightwalk at our blk 80.. lala.. tot of something to add at lvl 2/3 wakaka~ XD after tat met the rest of they ppl practicing for dance at 80 booth area and stayed there awhile b4 going off.. then dear dear taught me the dance steps for hiphop just a rough run thru la~ haha.. considering joining hiphop section see how it goes tml ba..

k tat's abt it for the day and i realised i wan still sick after i got home n took the temp after shower.. gosh. n it struck me... y am i doing so much while some ppl can really be laidback doing so little?! i mean.. who will b the ones staying here in s'pore? who will be the ones tat will be complimented/criticised when feedbacks r taken after the camp? hello.. y m i going thru' all tis when some really don't seem to b putting in the effort to? getting naggings n stuff frm my parents yet i'm still there for practices, chairing meetings with yl.. can't they just get it and make SOME effort to make tis camp even work? FOC IS NEARER THEN U THINK IT IS ALRIGHT... n some ppl are just working their ass off just to get things going without mention i'm sure there's a rough idea of who it mayb yea? don't needa spell it out..

right tat's just what i see frm my pt of view whoever tat disagree i don't bother 公道自在人心！！ n it's just some rant ignore it ya tatas..
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wednesday, gl training & dancefloor
woohoo.. finally had full training.. the previous missed pt.. haha well then since i've not exactly exercised for so long, pt was actually alright except for the push up thingy on the steps one.. ouchies.. tat one was the worst followed by the 45 degree hold but could still hang in there till the end. LOL~ then after tat was cheers. we're asked to do combo cheers and sing top of the world! shouted like nobody business for the pt and cheers.. that resulted in my terrible sore throat>< barely wanna talk or eat sia.. pain! gosh.. but tat's the after effect felt at night n grew worst over time..

then we played games tis time gamemaster were gls and we were suppose to explain the rules of the game and stuff to our fellow gls. then had a short short games comm meeting abt logistics needed for out games.. washed up and i headed home to change n stuff before heading out to media corp watch dancefloor live.. heh

wow~ the grps were good! okay just some tat were abit.. not suppose to b in but still there but they're trying their best to perform~ we're at the mosh pit which was the side of the stage and was stunned.. the host came up to the moshpit?! omg.. haha well on the whole it was great! after tat went for a small dinner at macs before heading home.. reached arnd 11.

thursday
went over to dear dear's hse to watch movies!~ wahaha.. so so long since we did tat.. and it really felt so long since i was over at his! lol~ anyway we caught Series of Unfortunate Events and Happy Feet! nice show~~ but i couldn't watch the ending for happy feet.. i'll get to soon! hehe.. i miss dear dear!!

after tat it's all boring~ cuz fri and today stayed home.. so i shan't write abt it! lol.. oh but i was since thurs night>.< was down with a fever and sore throat turned real bad had abit of probs sleeping gee.. hope it recovers soon! if not i shall sound terrible.. wha.. next wk shall b a bz one..dance pracs plus game comm meetings.. I NEED TO SETTLE LOG SOON! argh..

to donnie>> hey~ no matter what happens just go with ur heart and whatever is bound to happen will occur yeah? don't worry ur frens will be here to support ya n lend a listening ear when ya need;)

tatas~
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okays~ now everything's decided! past few days been going back to sch for dance item for FOC and also games comm meetings~

well then.. there was a fair over the weekend for australian schools.. went for both days sat didn't bring my results so could only check the schools n subs/degree i take. sort of came down to afew schools only.. tat was melbourne U, queensland U, NSW, or Nottingham.. all tat was foundation course to take first.. sun when we brought along my results to the booths.. well there was a disadv for me. cuz sec sch who as the !)(#U#$ principal gave us such a sucky combi of phy/bio >< then didn't take chem at all.. so abit jialat la.. tho the science for O's was a 1..

but cuz of this melbourne U the rep say until i really dulan lo.. well i mean.. what's the foundation course for>< anw~ queensland rep was more reasonable n friendly.. haha..in the end still didn't choose the sch..

yest went to sch for games comm meeting then ds.. halfway thru went to the overseas link thingy see the representatives of the schs again.. then confirm going to IES for foundation study then to university of queensland~

oh well good thing is.. i'll b going for 8 mths.. may n i'll b back in dec! haha.. update again soon.. tatas
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okay.. updated yest one long post n blogger decided to give up on uploading it. crap yest was so just not my day... s once again here to reupdate=.=

trail camp 10th-11th
well to get my dad's signature on the indemity form was tough already. had to listen to both parents' talk n in the end came to an agreement of going to camp but not stay the night. therefore i had to miss nightwalk.. ah nvm.. but the reason behind it was stupid seriously. anw just glad it was only a section of camp that i missed n not entirely! phew..

the 3d2n compressed into 2d1n was fun and learnt quite a lot of stuff n also team spirit tho we still needa improve on our initiative n keeping up to the pace.. urgency!! yeah.. the games planned was fun first time playing it dirty but fun hahas.. other then the abrasions n bruises as momento.. LOL muffins oi~!

second day of camp went back just in time for the games and cheers~ then at the end of it, we had reflection n debrief session.. we were seperated to 3 diff rms respectively and the starting felt as if we were in for a gd scolding cuz sgls looked so so stern!>< haha.. end up tat was the different comm that we were placed into.. i got into games!! n dear dear got into welfare=) both which was our first choice.. yay!~ the debrief session dragged on till quite late n by the time i got home, it was almost 10 lucky not to get any naggings

nerwin!~ heh.. tat's my grp name for FOC!! it's a submarine.. hahas~ cute name! dear dear got into bonnet n he was in the 'omg' state when he knew what was the it.. but glad he finds it cool n cute now!~ ^^

wednesday, 14th
the day i dread real much for it was D-day.. death n decision day as i told many.. well apparently it was really death for me n decision tat now it's 89.9% i would have to go over. any miracle tat's gonna save me? i don't think so..

early in the morning had to start the day so badly.. i was utterly disappointed with my results. neva felt so so ashamed of my result y? how now? this 2 questions just revolved arnd my mind.. at tat pt i wished so much i was at the extreme poles of earth isolated n free frm all others. not possible tho. tat was already the end of the rope n i can escape no further frm tis fate of mine.

i can't blame anyone but myself for it cuz i brought it upon myself right frm the start. a mess created by me that i will have to pick up the pieces n move on with it. went late for training and i wasn't in the mood at all for anything.. continued the day seemed fine to me.. glad i passed thru it without getting others worried abt me.. but i now know what's the meaning a phrase tat i once found strange abt..

now i'll just stop procrastinating, get myself together n walk the path i should with a smile on me cuz it'll be tough n make the best out of it. i swear to myself i won't wanna see similar results ever ever again.

right~ enough of that n there's commitments i have to take up and b responsible abt it. personal or sch related.. FOC arnd the corner i just wanna make it a gd one!! denyse!~ denyse!~ where's ur email!?>< without it neither me nor yanlin can get anything done/ planned out!!!~

ok enough for the time being.. rawr~
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dance lessons
haix learnt it for like 10 years plus plus n now stopped learning feels a lil weird.. hahas.. but went over to my dance place to pay for the balance fee n stuff. gah~ but i definitely still will cont..

D&D
tonight had dinner and dance meet donnie at bedok and went together to marriott hotel~ reached arnd 5 hahas we were so so blur! anw.. we had to paste the 'ngee ann polytechnic' sticker on the door gifts LOL~ oh my.. registration was WHOA messy.. especially the list.. 3 pieces of paper with jumbled names><>< hahas.. so was quite bz till arnd 8.30 where the whole event started~ hahas dinner was chicken rice quite nice and we brought out cakies! oh my they were good!!! yumm heh everything went quite well but it had to end bad for me.. tt's y i can update now hahas... parents came at abt 10 n we went off

hp bills
omg tis 2 mths bills r like HIGH considering my plan n it exceed so much.. gee.. mom even threatened to cut my line if my bill's as high next mth gosh..

reflection..
seeing n helping out in the d&d makes me think of which i may not b able to plan for next badge of d&d.. making things worse my own badge of d&d also cannot attend =( gah.. can't stop feeling so irritated by small stuff.. i feel like a bird stuck in a big cage.. can't move outta the sight of my parents haix.. is it's really my fate for all this edu years??

tatas..
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lala~ the past few days had aikido n gl training, went out with my dad to the IOA( tis company tat help make arrangements to oversea schs) to check out schs tat i can go in aussie._., met up with dear dear..

well.. it seems like my world now is revolving arnd the persuasion of my parents to going over to aussie to study, dear dear, trainings and slacking lol..

i don't really wanna go over to aussie leaving all my frens and dear dear N leaving without completing diploma makes me feel like such a halfway person la.. >.< but it's my parents' wish for me to go over and they WILL have to pay a huge sum for it.. for the good of my future i know.. haiz tat's where the whole problem is.. i don't wanna oblige to them at the same time, i don't wanna go against 'em!! argh..

time spent with dear dear
went over to dear dear's on mon to catch up on the animes and talk abt the oversea study.. kinda sad n i just couldn't contain those tears. they just flowed down.. n it rained heavily at tat time.. wondered if it was heaven's tears =x after tat had dinner at pastamania with dear dear n he accompanied me to tanglin cc when he went over to bugis to buy his stuff

aikido n gl training~ aikido training tat was on mon was quite alright~ kinda felt like my techniques have turned rusty frm all the trainings i skipped during exam period hahas.. but everything's coming back into place which ish good~
the new committee for the club with feng as president was the right choice! n glad tat i'm not in comm liao~ hahas due to the insufficient of positions yay~ phew if i was in comm n i have to leave, gee i'll feel even worse abt it

gl training yest everything else was fine except the campus run>< haven been exercising n oh my gosh.. first time i've such experience of running till my ears were kinda blocked n hear myself breathing.. dehydration i guess.. so i fell out half way n walked the rest of the distance back to starting pt..the rest of the time were used to learn cheers! hehe most of which i knew cuz of guides camp n stuff.. hahas..

we did dum dum didi n there was a king n queen for it! er.. don't misinterpret hor.. ish the one tat couldn't do it tat well.. king: eddy n queen:felicia~ poor guys.. they had to have the rubbish bin over 'em>< the rest of the cheers was alright n it was fun^^

today going out to teach my dear fren who's exams r not finished~ tml last paper for her GAMBATTE~~

well then shall stop here n go out now~ tatas *praying hard i can go aussie AFTER diploma...*
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